Control

Hello friends.
I always feel like my semesters have a theme. Sometimes when I am procrastinating life, I try and take it even further. Theme songs, theme bible verses, theme photos... etc.
For example:
Fall 2009
Theme: Stick it to the Man
Song: Eye of the Tiger
Verse:....

Okay I don't really remember the verse. I just know I walked around with the Rocky theme in my head all the time as I simultaneously fought injustice in the world, in the college of public health, and all the way down to Dancin Gators.

My point:

This semesters theme is surrender. Totally and heartbreakingly opposite of last semester. It was a high cloud to fall from. From day one, God has been showing me that I am not in control. It started off small with things like my car breaking down and ruining what would have been my most epic Dinsey adventure to date. Moved on to other things, and then CRU womens retreat was themed around surrender and brought up a whole lot of internal crap that I have been working through as to WHY surrender is such a hard thing for me to do. Things began to spin out of control and I tried again and again to let go of the wheel but always ended up grabbing back on at the last second and still crashing the car.

This summer project support raising business, among other recent trials, is truly and honestly only going to happen when I daily surrender my plans, my agenda, my will, my everything to God. Tomorrow is so incredibly uncertain. But I am trusting God with it. Every day, I surrender it again. Every minute, I have to remember that God is in control.


"Now I am about to go the way of all the earth. You know with all your heart and soul that not one of all the good promises the LORD your God gave you has failed. Every promise has been fulfilled; not one has failed."
Joshua 23:14

I most often associate surrender with retreat. An army that surrenders does not surge forward. But this is the opposite. Every single time I surrender my white-knuckle grip on my plans and dreams, I take one step closer to the perfect plan God has laid before me.

I have officially hit 30%. One penny at a time. One day at a time. One surrender at a time.

Supporter Shoutout:
Taryn McEachrane, who was actually my first ever supporter and I never put her on the list and am dreadfully sorry and love dearly.
Sarah "strange" Obarowski
Bob and Linda Cannon
Kaitlin Clark and Renee Berens, who besides B.Clark were especially generous at the bake sale :)

I love you all and cannot wait to keep you posted more.
Keep me in your prayers!
Kelly